:(

It has been a while. I cannot remember when was the last time i actually sit down and update my thought in this blog. Anyway, I 'm here to share something.

Sooner or later i will be graduate from Unisa, which means that i will be unemployed at that time. To be honest, I'm going to miss this ! no matter how much i hate about those assignments, course work, test and bla bla bla .... When it come to the end, i have a really hard feeling on it. Especially few days ago, I was working on my last assignment for this semester, and my friend told me

" Hey, you better work hard for this, because this will be the Last assignment for you". Then I'm like , yeah , he is damn right , is my last assignment. After this, there will be no more assignment from Uni.....

I'm so fuss about my future.

Thought i will be strong enough to take this , but the fact is I'm not.

We haven't meet each other for at least 2 months. When we meet, everything just flow perfectly and I had a great time and i really appreciate it. We did something out of our routine and i feel awesome about it. But, i can feel those barriers between us, never can figure it out. Staring to those stuffs that you left to me , I'm like when are we going to meet again ? Then , the next question will be "are we going to meet again ?"

Good to know that you are doing great and you have such a big plan for your future.

:(

難過


是因為悶了很久


是因為想了太多


是心理起了作用


你說 苦笑常常陪著你


在一起有點勉強

該不該現在休了我


*不想太多


我想一定是我


聽錯弄錯搞錯


拜託 我想是你的腦袋有問題

隨便說說


其實我早已經猜透看透不想多說


只是我怕眼淚撐不住

不懂 你的黑色幽默

想通 卻又再考倒我

說散 你想很久了吧

我不想拆穿你

當作 是你開的玩笑


想通 卻又再考倒我


說散 你想很久了吧


敗給你的黑色幽默



說散 你想很久了吧


我的認真敗給黑色幽默

:X

miss you more than anything ~~~

:(

So fucking stress recently.......

:(

one of my friends told me that you know what would be the answer.

but

i just want to give it another shot.

:)

chest to chest

nose to nose

palm to palm

We were always just that close ~~

I can't stop thinking of that night

What we've done in the club,

or even those stuffs we've done on the way back home

It just too sweet !

I have a blast at that night !

and i cherish you !

:)

I had a best night out ever! EVER!!!!!

:(

used to visit that place for once or twice in a month......

feel so blissful .......

or being taking care......

Always had a great time.....

BUT,

everything will back to basic on the Next day

OR

Even Worst ~~~~

And i'm wondering,

what if i heading back to the place that i used to belong

Am i'm going to survive without this ?

I'm sure that I'm going to MISS it.

:)/:(

Went out on yesterday night and prove that i need to do it more often. Question, HOW ?

:(

It's a quarter after eleven, million of stuffs running in my head, torturing my mind !

Everything does not go the way that i thought! Never!

Whatever! Just deal with the fact!

:') /:'(

It had been a while. Now, let me share with you about my Canada's life.

In the beginning of 2010 year, I was doing my routine in checking my mail box. Surprisingly, there was an email regarding my application for student exchange in Canada was accepted by Brock University! Everything is out of my expectation, i never thought that i would have a chance to step on Canada territory! After that, I made up my mind and start packing and get everything ready.

The day before i left Australia, i seriously wasn't in the mood! I knew that i'm going miss my friends. After 22 hours flight from Adelaide to Toronto, it drives me crazy and dizzy ! Luckily, Tony was there and pick me up at the airport! I really appreciated his help through out my time in Canada. After that, Tony drop me in school and left. I picked up my keys at student services center and moved all my luggage into my room. At the moment, there was a warm welcoming party happening at Campus. However, I was freaking tired after 22 hours flight so i decided to stay at my residence and unpacking my stuffs. Leo, he was the first guy that i met when i arrived Brock. He was my house mate. I saw my name "Gan" was sticked on the door together with a name "LEE". Then i start wondering, am i going to stay with another Asian ? After a short conversation with LEO, I knew that he was a bit tipsy and drunk at that time, and he told me that " LEE" wasn't an ASIAN but a CANADIAN.

The first night , i have this bizarre feeling, I felt empty, miserable and lonely. It took almost 2 hours to bed! The next day, I met a girl, Morena, she is from UNISA as well, What a coincidence! Then Johan, a French guy who uses ridicule irony sarcasm when he is talking to people! I knew that he wasn't born to be so mean! Anyway, he is a cute French guy. Charlotte, an intelligent, smart and a girl who likes to complain so much! She told me that this is French Style and she just cannot get rid of it ! What a nice girl! Pauline, a typical French girl! Never mess around with her, she will yell and push you when she was angry! Benjamin, my brother! WE used to drink and dance together ! I miss him.

I was so sad that i have no choice and have to left Canada and all my friends! Next, I knew someone who is really close to me, it was so hard to said goodbye and i really miss those time that we spend together. I can felt that was a blade in my heart! It Hurts and i knew that i broke your heart as well ! I'm so Sorry that i broke my promise! I never meant to break it, Never ! We are born to be the person from different world So take care! I miss you! I really do :') Have a good life !

Guys, take care !